LifestyleWithZelig

All I've ever wished for is the liberty to completely be myself. To be vulnerable, bold, flawed, creative, multifaceted. To experience things and feel diverse emotions without the consciousness of being judged. This completeness that comes from doing the things you love, making mistakes, knowing you're at peace with yourself - is what I have always craved since I was old enough to truly want anything. I never took interest in subjects like physics, politics, the stock market or other mundane topics most people favoured. Instead I found myself deep in thoughts and in worn pages of books and comics, musing about things I'm very certain no one ever thinks of, unburdened by the plagues of societal obligations. The perils of my overactive imagination which started off as silent musings and daydreams turned to conversations which made me think I was insane, then gradually, flowed into words on paper. I remember talking to myself all the time while doing chores, going to school,...

It is with a renewed sense of self that I write this, because I'm supposed to be utterly dejected right now but I'm not. I choose not to be. I cannot be bothered by the sardonic nature of people. By the fact that the world wants to tweak me into something I don't intend being. I never understood why people wanted to be the force of change in other people's lives when they don't have theirs figured out. It irks me that there's always a label attached to me wherever I go. Body shaming words like too skinny, flat bum, why acne?, skin isn't smooth, ugly, wrong clothes, two piercings?, blonde hair?, from calabar?, follows me everywhere. I exude confidence I don't feel most times because I have to, not unless I want humanity getting under my skin. People don't seem to think beyond the exterior that I have anything to bring to the table simply because I'm skinny. I mean that's cruel. I know I'm smart, beautiful, talented, brave, have the body w...