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ERRATIC EMOTIONS

It's been a while since I was here and a lot has happened in my time of absence. I recently moved to a new city to garner experiences, skills, explore and chart a new course for my life. At first I loved the freedom that comes with independence and the satisfaction of doing something that's always been on my mind. But I began feeling sort of nostalgic and the sense of separation from my family stung with each passing day. In this new city, I miss the people in my life and amidst my other jumbled thoughts that I might have made a huge mistake is the idea that I was not happy. Freedom! It should have brought me uncontained  happiness but instead sadness hung over my head. I even got as far as getting a job so why wasn't I happy?.  I spoke to my family /friends and they reassured me to be happy that everything would be fine. One of my Instagram friends @Olotufunke who is a Nigerian blogger shared one of her affirmation post that struck me straight in the heart and further alla...
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LOFTY INCLINATIONS

All I've ever wished for is the liberty to completely be myself. To be vulnerable, bold, flawed, creative, multifaceted. To experience things and feel diverse emotions without the consciousness of being judged. This completeness that comes from doing the things you love, making mistakes, knowing you're at peace with yourself - is what I have always craved since I was old enough to truly want anything. I never took interest in subjects like physics, politics, the stock market or other mundane topics most people favoured. Instead I found myself deep in thoughts and in worn pages of books and comics, musing about things I'm very certain no one ever thinks of, unburdened by the plagues of societal obligations. The perils of my overactive imagination which started off as silent musings and daydreams turned to conversations which made me think I was insane, then gradually, flowed into words on paper. I remember talking to myself all the time while doing chores, going to school,...

LABELS - stop giving it to people when you've not walked a mile in their shoes!

It is with a renewed sense of self that I write this, because I'm supposed to be utterly dejected right now but I'm not. I choose not to be. I cannot be bothered by the sardonic nature of people. By the fact that the world wants to tweak me into something I don't intend being. I never understood why people wanted to be the force of change in other people's lives when they don't have theirs figured out. It irks me that there's always a label attached to me wherever I go. Body shaming words like too skinny, flat bum, why acne?, skin isn't smooth, ugly, wrong clothes, two piercings?, blonde hair?, from calabar?, follows me everywhere. I exude confidence I don't feel most times because I have to, not unless I want humanity getting under my skin. People don't seem to think beyond the exterior that I have anything to bring to the table simply because I'm skinny. I mean that's cruel. I know I'm smart, beautiful, talented, brave, have the body w...

AHUBA: a short story

Ahuba arrived at the Ekanem Children's home a tiny, frail, quiet thing carefully bundled in an almost threadbare, amber coloured, Hi-target wrapper. She went about her business silently and never caused trouble for the other children, the childcare workers or anyone for that matter. She favoured the woodshed and dark corridors where she stayed for hours and brooded on nothing. Sister Unyime the Matron who went by Sisi consistently told Ahuba that she was a possessed girl on a mission, having killed her mother during childbirth therefore, she was evil. “ ifot, Witch!. Stop hiding in corners and giving others the scare of their lives. You're an old, evil soul and if you keep this up, ma'basi, by God you'll never find yourself in a family and even if you did, the mother who'll adopt you should be warned." Ahuba never did find a family. At a tender age when other children dreamt of going to parks, visiting museums and finding themselves in loving homes, she had vio...

MY FIRST BLOG POST

Hi, welcome to my blog. I am super excited to have you here and I cannot wait to begin this journey with you. My name is Blessing. I am a Nigerian writer, model, and human rights advocate (huge portfolio right??). You must be wondering, what is she up to? I'm wondering so myself, lol. This is my first blog and I cannot tell you how happy it makes me that I finally have a space where I can share with you the things going on in my head.  For years I procrastinated about blogging, hit a huge block, and lost my muse for writing. I cried for days because I couldn't understand how all of a sudden that spark was gone. That magical warmth flowed inside of me and manifested itself in the form of words. How did it happen? It was unreal.  Every single day I wept my frustration before I finally moved on because after trying hard and failing to regain my lost spark, I decided it was fate. I wasn't meant to be a writer after all and like other career paths I'd chosen in the past, wr...